Put Away Childish Things
10 October 2013
I’m Still Here!
12 October 2013

I’ve been really enjoying writing more consistently this week. My creative juices have been engaged and the words are just flowing. It helps to have a dedicated ritual, with any activity, if we want to foster a particular skill or talent.

Traditionally, I’m horrible with rituals. There’s a part of me that pushes against doing a similar activity at a similar time on a regular basis; it challenges an idea I have about freedom that is deeply etched in my psyche. Just being aware of this has not yet allowed me to overcome it, and, yes, I do realise the advantage of overcoming it. Having some sort of enforced ritual has often helped me keep grounded and less space-cadettie. I’ve found that I tend to flourish when, for example, I have a regular work or exercise schedules that I’m forced to stick to by being accountable to other people instead of it being more of a voluntary schedule that only I know of.

It’s very easy for me to abandon a self-imposed schedule. In this particular facet, my discipline levels are fairly low and I give into whim quite readily. To be honest, even tho I have committed to a regular entry for this new Project Me, a part of me is wondering how long I will last. Five days down and still at it. I should force more people to read this. That way, I have some level of accountability that’s outside of myself. Then again, I seldom really care about disappointing people. Especially if it interferes with my sleeping ritual!

Aah, right, that’s actually a self-imposed ritual that I hold to quite regularly.

Ok, now I really feel like my brain is mush and the last few lines are proof that I could do with some sweet coffee and a cinnabon. Mmmm. To the Bon dispensary! Away!